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How My Eating Disorder Healed My Anxiety and Depression

For the longest time, I struggled in silence and often in my own disbelief. Unbeknownst to many around me, I battled with undiagnosed anxiety and depression, masked by what was identified as an eating disorder. In those moments, eating disorders were often dismissed as mere personality quirks rather than recognized as the serious illnesses they truly are. It wasn't until I delved deeper into understanding my own struggles that I began to unravel the layers of my condition and embark on a journey towards healing my anxiety and depression.

my younger self with my brothers

At the surface, my struggles manifested as disordered eating habits – a constant battle with food and body image. But beneath that facade lay a deeper truth: the underlying causes of my behavior were rooted in anxiety and depression. It was as though my mind and body were engaged in a relentless tug-of-war, each vying for control over my thoughts and actions.

Recognizing that my eating disorder was merely a symptom of deeper emotional turmoil was a pivotal moment in my journey. It allowed me to shift my focus from treating the surface-level symptoms to addressing the root cause of my struggles. Thus began my journey of self-discovery, guided by a newfound commitment to myself, personal growth, and a relentless pursuit of self love and acceptance.

Love became my guiding light – both for myself and others. I learned to show myself compassion and kindness, recognizing that healing begins from within. Through mindfulness, I found solace in the stillness of my mind, learning to quiet the incessant chatter of anxiety and depression that had plagued me for so long.

Personal growth became my mantra as I embarked on a journey of self-improvement. I sought out tools and techniques to better understand myself and my emotions, learning to navigate the complexities of my inner world with grace and resilience. Each setback became an opportunity for growth, each challenge a chance to strengthen my resolve.

Spirituality became an integral part of my healing journey, providing me with a sense of purpose and connection to something greater than myself. I found peace in the belief that there is a higher power guiding me through life's ups and downs, helping me find meaning in the midst of chaos.

Seeking and searching became second nature as I embarked on a quest for answers – both within myself and in the world around me. I devoured books, attended workshops, and sought out mentors who could offer guidance and support along the way. Each new insight brought me closer to understanding myself and my journey towards healing.

Personal development became my passion as I dedicated myself to becoming the best version of myself. I embraced new experiences, pushed past my comfort zone, and arose, into the process of transformation with open arms. With each step forward, I felt myself growing stronger, more resilient, and more capable of facing whatever life threw my way.

And through it all, I learned the importance of being fully present in the moment – of embracing life's beauty and imperfections with open arms. I learned that healing is not a destination but a journey, and that true happiness lies in embracing the journey with an open heart and free of expectations.

Today, I am a testament to the power of healing through understanding, through love, only love heals, meditation, personal growth, spirituality, mindfulness, seeking and searching.  I have healed my anxiety and depression and have learned to fully embrace the present moment. In doing so, I have discovered a sense of peace, and fulfillment that I never thought possible.

To anyone struggling with their own shadow side, I offer this: You are not alone. Your struggles do not define you. With love, courage, and perseverance, healing is not only possible it’s probable. Embrace the journey, trust the process, and invite brighter days into the now moment. 

Love and Light,

Celia Lambert, Ph. D.


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